I’ve lost hope

I feel like I’ve lost all hope. It seems like everyone has given up on me passing my classes.

Just the other day, my mom asked if I had given up on English, and when I replied “kind of,” she just accepted it, knowing I’m not okay with the idea of failing. She is aware that I’ve been focusing on improving my Biology grade and haven’t been able to keep up with English.

Since I’m on a block schedule, I have English every day, but I’ve been getting sick frequently, which has really taken a toll on both my grades and my motivation. My English teacher hardly checks my work anymore, let alone asks if it’s completed. He’s also tough to talk to, which makes things even harder.

My dad is frustrated with my math performance, despite my significant improvement since last semester. I’m turning in my assignments on time; it’s just that I forgot to finish one quiz that my teacher allowed us to complete as homework. This mistake brought my grade down to where it was before. Now, my math teacher is suggesting I drop to a lower level, which would complicate my entire schedule, and I really don’t want to switch teachers because I genuinely like him.

In Art, the grades aren’t fully updated, but I believe I’m failing. Assignments are marked as missing if not turned in by the deadline, which makes them show up as graded even when they’re not complete. This creates a confusing situation where I struggle to figure out what I still need to submit. Many assignments are locked a week after the due date, and I often don’t have time to review everything. The grading is harsh too; my teacher rarely gives higher than a 3.7 out of 4, and my current grades have pushed me down to a D+.

My dad is constantly stressed about my grades, reminding me, “You don’t have much time left,” which he started saying back in January. He’s even threatened to call the school daily to complain, but they can’t change my situation—it’s entirely dependent on me catching up. He’s also hinted at pulling me out of school altogether, which feels incredibly over the top. I wish he’d stop; his extreme reactions only add to my stress and don’t help at all.

I just feel trapped and don’t know how to fix things or if there’s even a chance for me to improve.

TL;DR: I’m struggling in English and Art, my Math grade is just barely okay, and it feels like no one’s willing to help me. My mom has resigned herself to the idea that I might fail, while my dad is threatening to call the school daily, even though this is ultimately my responsibility. I feel like time is running out for me.

One Reply to “I’ve lost hope”

  1. I’m really sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. It sounds like you’re under so much pressure from all sides, and it’s completely normal to feel overwhelmed. It’s hard when it feels like no one is on your team, especially when you’re trying your best to improve.

    First, remember that it’s okay to ask for help, even if it feels daunting. Have you thought about reaching out to your English and Art teachers to explain your situation? They might be more understanding than you think, especially since there might be ways to make up for missed assignments or get extra support. You deserve to be heard and supported, so don’t hesitate to advocate for yourself.

    Also, it might be helpful to break things down into smaller, manageable tasks. Focus on one subject at a time and set specific goals for what you can realistically accomplish each day. This can help reduce some of the overwhelming feelings and give you a clearer path forward.

    As for your parents, it sounds like they’re worried and may not know how to best support you. Finding a time to talk with them about how you’re feeling could help them understand your perspective better. Maybe you could suggest finding solutions together instead of making threats or ultimatums.

    Remember, you’re not alone in this, and it’s okay to feel stuck sometimes. It takes time and effort to turn things around, but you can absolutely do it. You just need to give yourself a little grace and take it step by step.

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