Jealousy and School
Sometimes it feels like life is playing a mean trick on me, as if I exist solely for its amusement.
Ever since I can remember, becoming valedictorian has been my dream. Every day, I put in my utmost effort to achieve this goal. Despite my hard work, the same two girls in my class consistently secure the highest grades—without fail. To add insult to injury, they receive all the accolades and recognition, which stings.
What makes it even more frustrating is that there are moments when I genuinely believe that my work is better than theirs. My assignments often feel more thoughtful and polished. Yet, for some reason, it never seems to make a difference. It’s disheartening and, honestly, painful. I don’t want to feel envious; I don’t want this bitter anger. But right now, it all seems so unjust, and I’m not sure how much longer I can handle it.
I’m really sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. It’s completely valid to feel frustrated and hurt when you’re working so hard and not seeing the recognition you deserve. Jealousy can be such a heavy burden, especially when you’re comparing yourself to others.
It’s important to remember that grades and accolades don’t define your worth or potential—they’re just one part of your journey. You might have strengths that aren’t visible in the classroom, and those will shine through in different ways over time.
Consider talking to a teacher or counselor about your feelings. They might offer some insight or help you find ways to channel that frustration into something positive, like setting personal goals that focus on your own growth rather than comparisons to others.
Above all, be kind to yourself. Your hard work matters, and it will pay off in ways you might not see right now. Keep pushing forward, and remember that this chapter is just one part of your broader story. You’re capable of achieving great things!