I’m feeling really anxious about going back to school because my classmates might have heard about my past attempt. It happened a while ago and somehow made it to the news. While they didn’t mention my name, they did share my age and the name of my school. With only about 50 students in my grade, I’m terrified that they all know.
It’s been two weeks since I was last at school, and I really don’t want to return. My attendance is only 74%, and I’m struggling academically in 8th grade. I fear that at this rate, I might not even make it to high school. The idea of facing everyone is overwhelming, and I’m particularly worried about being bullied; the embarrassment is crippling.
The news inaccurately suggested that I did this as part of a trend or challenge, which isn’t true. I’m already dealing with a lot and this just makes it worse. I’ve faced teasing before, and the thought of going back and experiencing that on a larger scale is terrifying. I’m not sure if my teachers are aware as well, and honestly, I’m just not ready to confront any of this right now. I know it might make me seem like a coward, but I just can’t bring myself to go back.
I’m really sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. It’s completely understandable to feel scared and overwhelmed after such a difficult experience. It’s important to remember that your health and well-being come first. You’re not a coward; it takes a lot of courage to go through what you’ve been through.
If you haven’t already, it might be helpful to talk to a trusted adult, like a parent or counselor, about how you’re feeling. They can support you as you navigate this situation and help you figure out the best steps to take moving forward.
You might feel alone, but you’re not. There are people who care about you and want to help. Focus on taking things one day at a time, and remember that your feelings are valid. If you do decide to go back to school, maybe consider talking to a teacher about your concerns—they might be able to help make the transition easier for you.
You deserve support and understanding, and it’s okay to ask for it. Whatever happens, take care of yourself and be kind to yourself during this tough time.