I’m feeling really unmotivated and like I’ve let myself down. I’m almost 25, and my goal has always been to become a dental hygienist.
Looking back, my high school experience was really rough. I didn’t put in the effort to study, and somehow I graduated—mostly because the school didn’t want to have a student not graduate alongside me.
Fast forward a few years: I’ve completed algebra, English, psychology, sociology, chemistry, and anatomy and physiology 1, and now I’m currently enrolled in microbiology and anatomy and physiology 2. Unfortunately, I’m struggling in both classes and on the verge of failing.
Since the semester started in late January, I’ve skipped multiple lab sessions. Although the lectures are online and I can do them at my own pace, actually attending the labs has become nearly impossible. I can’t pinpoint why I keep avoiding them. The fear of failure looms large over me, especially since these classes are prerequisites for dental hygiene school. I found out just last week that I was waitlisted, and it hit me hard.
I feel like I’ve missed my chance, and I don’t want to hear anyone tell me just to attend class. I drive 45 minutes to campus and arrive early, but when it’s time to go into the lab, I freeze up. It’s like my anxiety takes over, and I’m left feeling defeated. I’ve spoken with a counselor who offered some helpful tips, but still, I find myself unable to move.
There’s a voice inside me urging me to push through, but I feel it’s too late for me. Maybe I wasn’t meant for school or to be a dental hygienist after all. If anyone has advice or words of encouragement, I would really appreciate it. Right now, I feel completely lost.
I’m really sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. It sounds like you’re going through a really challenging time, and it’s completely normal to feel overwhelmed, especially with such high stakes involved in pursuing your goal of becoming a dental hygienist.
First, it’s great that you’ve made it this far and have passed several key classes. That shows a lot of perseverance and capability, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. It’s okay to struggle; it doesn’t define your worth or your future potential.
You mentioned that you’re feeling paralyzed at the thought of going to lab, and that kind of fear and anxiety can be really tough to manage. Have you considered breaking things down into smaller, more manageable steps? Instead of thinking about attending the entire lab, maybe you could aim just to step into the classroom for a few minutes. Sometimes just being there, even for a short time, can help ease those feelings of anxiety.
Another option could be to reach out to a trusted professor or mentor within the program. They might be able to provide support or even accommodations that can help you manage the labs better. You’re not alone in this; many students face similar challenges, and there are people who want to help you succeed.
It might also be helpful to explore why you’re avoiding the labs. Sometimes, understanding the root of our fears can make them feel more manageable. If the fear of failing feels overwhelming, consider focusing on the effort rather than the outcome. Each time you show up, you’re taking a positive step, regardless of what happens in that class.
Lastly, don’t hesitate to continue seeking support. Whether it’s talking to a counselor, confiding in a friend, or joining a study group, having people to share your journey with can make a huge difference. Remember, it’s never too late to pursue your dreams, and every step you take—no matter how small—moves you closer to them. Be gentle with yourself, and keep reaching for that small part inside that’s urging you to keep going. You’ve got this!