Hey everyone, I’m feeling pretty lost right now. 😞
I’m currently a Junior majoring in Computer Science, and things aren’t going well for me. I can’t tell if it’s my major that I’m growing to dislike or if I just really can’t stand my classes—maybe it’s a bit of both. While my friends seem excited about their challenging courses, I dread my major classes each day. Honestly, I can’t recall a single Computer Science class that I’ve enjoyed. Not one. I know what you might be thinking: “He should just change his major to something that makes him happy.” That would be ideal, right?
But here’s the thing: I’m not sure if I’m just being lazy at 21, if I’m feeling depressed and that’s affecting my view of my classes, or if I genuinely dislike them. Dropping out would mean tossing away a lot of time and money, and I worry that it might just be a phase. However, this doesn’t feel like a passing phase; it feels more like a looming dread when I think about my future in Computer Science. But then there’s the nagging thought—what if it is just my mood making it seem worse?
I’ve invested so much effort, brainpower, and even tears into this major, and I hate the idea of letting that go to waste. If I stick it out, I only have two more semesters to go, and then I’d have my degree. My dad thinks I should just hang in there since having a degree opens up more opportunities, and it would only be a couple of tough semesters before I can move forward. I definitely have life goals; I want a comfortable family life with a wife, at least one adopted child, and some pets. Getting my degree seems like a solid step towards that security.
On the flip side, if I drop my classes, my life would feel completely off course. I could switch to an online university to pursue something I enjoy, but then I’d lose financial support. Plus, my current job is a Computer Science internship, and I doubt I could keep that if I decide to change paths. Is it worth it to pursue something exciting for the next year at the expense of stability?
I’m really struggling with what to do, and I would appreciate any advice. Just to add—I’ve considered other paths that I know I’d love, like writing, video editing, or concert light design. I have some solid experience in those fields and genuinely enjoy them! The challenge is that there aren’t many job opportunities in those areas right now. I’m aware the job market for Computer Science isn’t great either, but my internship isn’t bringing me joy either.
Anyway, thanks for reading through my quarter-life crisis if you made it this far! Any thoughts or advice would mean a lot.
It sounds like you’re going through a really tough time, and it’s perfectly okay to feel lost and confused about your path, especially with everything you’ve described. First, it’s important to acknowledge your feelings; they’re valid, and many people in college find themselves questioning their major and career path at some point.
Here are a few points to consider that might help you navigate this situation:
Reflect on Your Feelings: Take some time to think about what specifically you dislike about your Computer Science classes. Is it the subject matter, the teaching style, or the workload? Understanding the root of your feelings can help you make a more informed decision moving forward.
Explore Your Interests: Since you mentioned that you have a passion for writing, video editing, and concert light design, consider experimenting with those interests on the side. You could create a project, start a blog, or get involved in local events to see if pursuing those passions full-time is viable.
Talk It Out: Have you considered talking to an academic advisor or a counselor? They can offer insights and guidance tailored to your situation, and sometimes just discussing your feelings can provide clarity.
Think Long-Term: While the idea of finishing your degree in CS and keeping the job seems appealing for stability, think about the long-term impact on your happiness and fulfillment. A degree might open doors, but you’ll likely want to do something you enjoy once those doors are open.
Look for a Compromise: If possible, explore options like minoring in a subject related to your passions while completing your CS degree. This way, you can have the security of a degree while still engaging in what you love.
Consider the Financial Aspect: Your dad’s perspective on completing your degree for financial security is important, especially since you’re considering the implications on your financial support. Weigh that against your happiness in the long run. What’s more important: short-term discomfort with the hope of long-term stability and satisfaction, or taking the leap now and potentially facing financial challenges?
Network and Build Skills: If you do continue with CS, try to network within the fields you enjoy. You might find opportunities that combine tech and your interests, such as working on tech for media production or blending sound with technology.
Ultimately, this is a large decision that deserves careful thought. Whatever you choose, ensure it aligns with what you want in life and that it ultimately leads you closer to how you envision your future. Remember, it’s okay to take a different path, and many people find success and happiness in unexpected places. Good luck, and take care of yourself during this challenging time!