Navigating Graduation Anxiety: To Attend or Not to Attend?
As graduation day approaches, many students find themselves eager to celebrate their hard work and achievements. However, for some, like myself, the anticipation of the ceremony brings an overwhelming sense of dread. This year, I face a unique dilemma: while I have a special award awaiting me, I am grappling with the fear of attending the commencement ceremony itself.
In May, I will graduate as one of the few recipients of a distinguished award, presented by my university’s student life team. This honor is a testament to my commitment as a student leader and signifies recognition that just 11 seniors across the university will receive. While I am excited about the award and the accompanying recognition at a dedicated banquet, the thought of participating in the commencement ceremony is daunting.
My anxiety, particularly when it comes to large gatherings, has been a persistent challenge throughout my life. Formal ceremonies with their required dress codes and large crowds heighten my stress levels significantly. The caps and gowns, traditionally viewed as symbols of achievement, have become triggers for my anxiety due to the pressure they represent.
Although I want to celebrate this achievement with my fellow graduates, the fear of experiencing a panic attack in front of hundreds of attendees feels insurmountable. The idea of forcibly enduring a ceremony that could lead to distress is concerning; it raises the question of whether such an experience would create positive memories for anyone involved.
I find myself at a crossroads, worrying about the impression that skipping the ceremony might leave on my peers, especially those who have supported me throughout my journey. Disappointing those who wish to celebrate my accomplishments feels equally distressing as the thought of standing on a stage, overwhelmed by anxiety.
As I consider my options, I lean towards attending the other two events where I will be honored for my award, as they promise a more personal and supportive environment. However, the gravity of the decision looms large. Should I forgo the commencement ceremony to protect my mental well-being, or do I push through the discomfort in the name of celebration?
I am reaching out to those who may have faced similar challenges, particularly individuals with anxiety. Your insights and experiences could be invaluable in guiding me to a decision that respects both my achievement and my mental health. How do you navigate the complex feelings surrounding major milestones when anxiety is part of the equation?
In short, I’m eager for any advice. Should I attend the ceremony and face my fears, or is it acceptable