My parents and the rest of my family were flaky about giving answers for over a year while I was trying to plan for people coming to graduation. I even offered to pay for my mother’s plane ticket and have her stay in my apartment since I know money is an issue for her, but she finally told me after months of “I don’t know” that she would be too worried about leaving her two dogs for a couple days.
I had a boyfriend that promised he was coming who started ghosting me a month ago with no explanation, so that is now out.
I am a first generation graduate. There will be no one to clap for me. I go to a wealthy school where everyone I know is having a ton of guests and massive parties. I already bought the regalia out of some vague hope that someone would come. I don’t know how I’m going to look myself in the mirror on graduation day, and I’m honestly rethinking why I busted my butt so much doing this. I worked full time overnight in a hotel while going to school full time. I’ve aged myself horribly from not sleeping and being stressed.
Still no job offer, either. All of it seems for nothing and am in an incredibly dark place right now. Struggling to get through final projects and can feel myself breaking. Just needing some support and to know if anyone else will be walking alone this May.