A fellow student has passed away.
As a senior, this news hits hard. Over the weekend, another senior lost his life. I didn’t know him personally—I can’t even picture his face or remember his last name—but I can’t shake the thoughts of what happened. From what I’ve gathered, he was drinking one night and, while on FaceTime with his girlfriend and some friends, he was playing around with a gun when it accidentally discharged. The details are murky, and I’ve heard so many conflicting stories. Some say he suffocated on his own blood. I just can’t make sense of it all, and it keeps weighing on my mind.
I found myself crying twice today and even wrote a note of condolence to his father. There’s a girl in my class who’s sitting in the back, sobbing—her pain is palpable, and I feel helpless. Meanwhile, in other classes, everything seems to carry on as usual, with laughter and jokes. But for us seniors and the teachers, it feels like we’re falling apart.
School has been canceled this Friday so we can attend his funeral, but I’m unsure if I want to go. I don’t know his family, friends, or anyone connected to him, and it feels awkward to attend. Yet, it also feels wrong not to pay my respects. I’ve never experienced the loss of a classmate before, so I’m at a loss for how to navigate this.
The atmosphere in my senior classes is tense and heavy, filled with unspoken pain. I’m just not sure what to do or how to cope.
Rest in peace, KT. We’ll remember you. <3
I’m so sorry to hear about this tragic loss. It’s completely understandable to feel a mix of emotions right now, even if you didn’t know him personally. Grief can be overwhelming, and it touches everyone in different ways. It’s okay to feel sad, confused, or even disconnected from the situation you’re experiencing.
attending the funeral could help you find some closure, not only for yourself but also to show support for his family and friends who are grieving deeply. You’re part of a community that’s hurting, and sometimes just being there can make a difference. But it’s also okay to honor your feelings and choose what’s best for you. Whatever you decide, remember that it’s important to talk to someone about what you’re going through, whether that’s a friend, teacher, or counselor. You’re not alone in this, and it’s important to lean on each other during such a difficult time.
Take care of yourself, and allow yourself to feel whatever comes up. It’s a hard road, but you’re not alone as you navigate these feelings. Rest in peace, KT.