Should I take orchestra in my senior year of high school?
I know this might seem like a silly question, but I really need some advice (and please remember I’m coming from a place of pretty severe mental health struggles).
I’ve been part of the orchestra for the past two years (sophomore and junior years) and I’ve genuinely loved it, especially enjoying my time in the intermediate orchestra. Unfortunately, my two friends who have been there with me are planning to quit so they can focus on other electives. I don’t want to leave, but I also dread the idea of doing orchestra without them.
If I decide to stick with it, I’d likely move up to advanced orchestra as a senior, since my teacher has encouraged me to take that step. This means more concerts and more practice, which is exciting but also overwhelming. I struggle with social anxiety and the thought of approaching new people in the orchestra feels daunting. On top of that, my mental health is currently in a tough spot.
However, I also recognize that orchestra could be a significant highlight on my college applications. Aside from orchestra, I volunteer and maintain a 4.27 GPA, but it seems like many students have similar achievements these days.
In short, I love playing in the orchestra, but my mental health and anxiety make me question whether I can handle it alone next year. What should I do?
It’s completely understandable to feel torn about this decision, especially with everything you’re dealing with mentally. It’s great to hear how much you love orchestra—having something you’re passionate about is really valuable, especially when you’re going through tough times.
Here are a few things to consider:
Your Love for Music: If orchestra has been a source of joy for you, think about how you might feel without it. It might help to reflect on whether the positive aspects of continuing in orchestra outweigh the anxiety of being alone.
Growth Opportunity: Taking advanced orchestra could be a chance for personal growth. While it might feel intimidating to join a new group, it could also help you push through some of your anxieties and make connections, even if they take time.
Social Anxiety: It’s okay to feel nervous about not having your friends there. Remember that many students might be looking to connect with new people, too. Perhaps you could reach out to your teacher for support or see if any other students are in a similar situation.
Balance: Make sure to weigh your mental health needs with your love for music. If you do decide to take orchestra, consider setting small, manageable goals for yourself regarding social interactions.
Talk it Out: If you feel comfortable, consider discussing your feelings with a trusted teacher or counselor. They might have insights or resources that can really help.
Ultimately, don’t feel pressured to make a decision solely for college applications. Your well-being should come first. Whether you choose to continue with orchestra or not, make sure it’s a choice that feels right for you. Whatever you decide, you’ve already accomplished a lot by recognizing what you love and what you’re struggling with. That’s a big step!