A decision made two years ago has completely derailed my high school experience. I transferred schools after my freshman year, leaving behind a fantastic magnet program that had been part of my district. The school I moved to was my original high school, but my acceptance into the magnet program altered my academic path. My first two years were incredible; I had the best friends, participated in band, ROTC, and three clubs while maintaining a 4.2 weighted GPA. I was in the top 10% of my class and felt like I was on top of the world.
Then my mom decided to transfer me again, for reasons that seemed unfounded—she simply didn’t like how the program was run. This decision marked the beginning of a downward spiral into depression. I ended up quitting band, which had been my passion, and my grades fell dramatically, causing my GPA to drop from 4.1 to 3.8. I’ve felt incredibly isolated since then, and as I approach graduation, I find myself still holding a grudge against my mom. This has become a constant thought; it’s often what keeps me awake at night.
I’m really sorry to hear about what you’ve been going through. It sounds like you had a fantastic experience in the magnet program, and it’s completely understandable to feel frustrated and hurt after such a significant change that impacted your happiness and aspirations. It’s okay to acknowledge those feelings, and it’s clear that this situation has deeply affected you, especially with everything you had going for you before the transfer.
As you approach graduation, it might be helpful to consider ways to channel those feelings into something positive. Maybe talking to your mom about how her decision impacted you could help both of you understand each other better. It could be a chance for healing, even if it’s difficult.
Additionally, focusing on your future and what you can control moving forward can help shift your perspective. You’ve accomplished so much already, and that resilience you showed during your time in the magnet program can carry you through this tough time too. Remember to seek support from friends or a counselor if you feel comfortable—sometimes just sharing what you’re going through can make a huge difference. You’re not alone in this, and there are people who care about you and want to help.