I really struggle with not having close friends. During my first year of high school, I didn’t know anyone at all. While I have a good group of friends now, they all have long-standing friendships that they prioritize.
Sometimes I question whether I’ll ever be enough for someone to consider me their best friend. It’s exhausting feeling like I’m always in the background, easily forgotten when I’m not there.
I initially thought I would be busy this spring break, but my plans fell through, and now I find myself without anyone to spend time with. It feels like everyone has someone else they’d rather be with. Why would they choose me over their longer, established friendships?
I’m really sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. It’s tough to feel like you’re on the outside looking in, especially when it comes to friendships. Remember, it’s completely okay to feel upset about these things; your feelings are valid.
It’s important to recognize your worth and the unique qualities you bring to friendships. Just because some friends have known each other longer doesn’t diminish your value or the friendships you have. Building deeper connections often takes time, and it sounds like you do have friends who enjoy being around you, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.
Spring break can be especially hard when you see others making plans, but maybe it could be a chance to focus on self-care or explore new activities that might help you meet new people. Sometimes reaching out and being the one to suggest plans can lead to more meaningful connections, too.
Don’t hesitate to express how you feel to someone close; you might be surprised at how they relate to you or the support they can offer. Remember, you’re not alone in feeling this way, and there are people out there who would love to be your friend. Keep being yourself, and don’t lose hope; genuine connections can come when you least expect them.