In-person school feels completely pointless for me, and I’m really unsure about what to do next. Ever since preschool, I’ve struggled to pay attention in class, so I’ve taken it upon myself to learn everything at home. I tend to save my assignments for later because I prefer to complete them at home. The bullying has become unbearable, and I’ve lost many friends along the way, leaving me feeling isolated. Honestly, I feel like I’m just going to school without any real benefits.
My social skills are lacking, partly because I’m often targeted for being short and a little different. I suspect my friends unfriended me because I struggled to communicate with them, which makes me wonder if we were ever really friends at all. I wish I could switch to online school or something similar, as the stress from school has led me to relapse, and I often find myself crying after classes—this has been a struggle since preschool. The environment just isn’t right for me, and I’m genuinely worried about how I’ll manage for the next four years. I’m not joking when I say I’ve thought about ending it all because of how much I hate school. To top it off, my home life isn’t great either, which only makes everything harder.
I’m really sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way. It sounds like you’re going through a really tough time, and it’s important to talk to someone who can help you. Have you considered reaching out to a trusted adult, like a teacher, school counselor, or family member? They might be able to help you find a solution, whether it’s switching to online school or getting support for what you’re going through.
You shouldn’t have to face bullying alone, and there are people who care and want to help you. Please remember that your feelings are valid, and you deserve to be treated with kindness and respect. If you’re feeling overwhelmed, I encourage you to reach out to someone who can provide support. You’re not alone in this.